I mentioned in my last post on the “Christmas Tag” that I don’t really make resolutions. Well, more specifically I don’t normally write them down. Instead, I keep these resolutions in my head and check them off as the year progresses. I want to try writing it out this time around, hopefully I get better results. Sometimes you can speak things into existence.
What I want to focus on as I make this list are things I want to accomplish and a few habits I want to break in 2018.
I want to mention ANXIETY as the first thing I want to get rid of for 2018. In the past couple of months I feel like it has taken over my life. Literally, it has sucked the life out of me. It’s so hard for me to detach myself from situations I have no control over. I want to be able to be faced with a situation and instead of panicking or getting anxious about it I want to find a solution. Worrying doesn’t solve anything for anyone and neither does crying about it.
My career path is next because it’s the most important thing to me. If someone were to tell me their job isn’t important to them, then that tells me they have no responsibilities or bills. Work for me means stability. Moving out on my own this year was extremely scary at first. I wasn’t sure if my salary would be enough to support myself. And with the layoffs happening around different positions in my work place, I couldn’t help but worry about what I would do if I didn’t have my job. Money isn’t everything, but we need it to live. I don’t live a lavish life with expensive things, but I make sure I have what I need. I hope that in 2018 I can solidify a better career path for myself so I won’t have to worry as much. I really feel like I am doing everything I can to make this happen. I’m just waiting on the opportunity.
I want to throw this in here because I realized that I focus a lot of my energy and attention on the people around me. I just want to make sure in 2018 I don’t forget to focus on myself too. I worry so much about people I care about. That’s just who I am. I don’t necessarily want to change that but I want to make sure I can make myself happy. I used to go shopping to get my mind off of things in the past. Now, I really just do things for me. Do a face mask, get my nails done, cook or watch Netflix.
I want to make sure I don’t lose track of my blog. This year CB asked me about my blog and why I don’t post as often. What is stopping me from having frequent content? And it’s like my responses weren’t anything I can’t overcome. Not having enough time, really means I wasn’t making the time. You make time for the things you want. I struggled with writing posts because it was hard to find content to write about or find images to include. CB said why don’t I just tell that to my followers. There are plenty of bloggers out there that run into the same problems. I can make posts about how I’m feeling and generate conversation and content from there. All of this is really true. The same way I post on twitter with random thoughts. I can just bring that to my blog and spark conversation there. Since that conversation I have been posting a lot more frequently and even joining #blogmas to engage even more followers. I hope that once #blogmas is over I can still generate interesting content and learn more about monetizing my blog.
This is my ongoing struggle. I don’t think I’ve had a year like this one though. I’ve definitely been breaking out and getting scars, but one thing I promised myself was that I wasn’t going to cover it up. This has been the longest time since I haven't worn makeup, like none at all. And trust me there’s times I barely want to look in the mirror, but I wanted to see if not wearing makeup would help clear it up. From what I have seen, NO is has not. That myth of makeup causing more acne. It’s like so what’s my excuse. I get new breakouts every single week and I don’t touch any of my makeup. I wash my face twice a day. I use ACV as a toner and I moisturize. I even changed my diet a bit to see if that helps. I can say drinking water has prevented me from having really dry skin. But I hope that in 2018 I can find a skin care regimen that will really work for me. Even though CB always says he doesn’t see anything wrong with my skin. I hope I can be more confident in my own skin.